Never Gonna Give You Up

Never gonna let you down?

After a few fires, New York finally got some rain. We’re still in a drought. I don’t know what to make of the world. I’ve been feeling relatively calm about the election news, which is easier when various privileges insulate me from the immediate effects. Still, I’m grateful to have evolved from where I was 8 years ago, when my election panic might’ve done more harm than good. We may not be safe collectively but that doesn’t mean I’m currently in danger.

Just feeling a bit dry.

It’s one thing to know your anxiety isn’t helpful, and another thing to know how to ease it. I still have triggers, but I’m less likely to let anxiety take the wheel. I try to focus on controlling what I can, and often that’s just my immediate environment. I made an appointment to get my IUD replaced, so that’s one thing I theoretically shouldn’t have to worry about for the next eight years. And while I’m trying to stay calm, I don’t want to detach completely, which might prevent me from being of service.